I hope you will read it and take its words to heart. Sadly, your post is being used by some commenters to justify the Golden Gate Bridge net boondoggle. Ive been hospitalized 4 times in the past 6 weeks, after my 9th suicide attempt. Challenges, extreme challenges. The San Francisco Police Department's tip line can be reached at 415-575-4444. :A Follow-up Study of Suicide Attempters fromthe Golden Gate Bridge.. I mean how long can I go ahead. Sydney West is from Chapel Hill, North Carolina, but also grew up in the Pleasanton area. I am resigned to staying alive until I die in some other way. You can find a life worth living, too, if you set your mind to finding solutions. You can learn more about me here. The Suicide Deterrent System, also known as the Safety Net, is being constructed to keep people from jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge. She took a ride-share service. Everything says Get help. My failure as a person was responsible for my extreme step. But it was my final stay at a state mental hospital when I began reading a book that finally spoke to me: Dying for a Drink, and for the first time in my life I recognized the fact that I was an alcoholic and that I had been treating major depression with a depressant. . What, Im supposed to carry on with the HOPE that things MIGHT get better. That is no way to live, but that is the reality. Reports said West would often visit the bridge for runs, walks, and to take pictures. He might also have refused to remove the gun from the home, too. Dressed in a blue sweatshirt, leggings and Vans slip-on sneakers, the 19-year-old college student last contacted her family the day before with a lengthy phone call to her dad, Jay West. Its agonizing to lose someone you love to suicide, and you describe that agony very powerfully. If you havent already joined a support group for other suicide loss survivors, that might help you; such groups are available in person and online. Clad in two suits, weighted boots, football padding, another rubber suit and a football helmet that onlookers described as giving him a man-from-Mars look, Rhodes also had three parachutes on his back to ease his fall. January 25, 2021 / 11:03 AM The Golden Gate Bridge, which first opened in May 1937, was the most popular suicide site in the world during the documentary's filming, with approximately 1,200 deaths by 2003. Each year I did - 2004, 2007, and 2013 - the Red Sox went on to win the World Series. Will I Be Committed to a Mental Hospital if I Tell a Therapist about my Suicidal Thoughts? A vigil was held last week for West in Pleasanton. I woke up on my own after my first attempt. Simply put, means restriction saves lives. Somehow I survived. My sons father committed suicide and in the moments he was alive after shooting himself he kept saying sorry I shouldnt have never done this over and over. A. Her family launched a website,findsydneywest.com, that they hope will remind the community Sydney is still missing. [This comment was edited to abide by the Comments Policy. Yes I know this fear of failure as well. West returned to the Bay Area as a University of California, Berkeley student, where she studied until recently, San Francisco police said when she was first reported missing. Im afraid to try again and it just adds for anger, desperation, loss of control over my own life and guilt for those in my life who have to worry. As a person who has tried countless times to end my life, even shooting myself in the head, we are stuck living with yet another feeling of failure when we fail and continue suffering. The longitude and latitude for the Bridge location is approximately: N 37 Degrees, 49 Minutes, 8.0 Seconds --- W 122 Degrees, 28 Minutes, 40.6 Seconds. Once her gap year was over, she moved back to California decided to attend U.C. My husband killed himself 6 weeks ago at home to put a closure on our marital problem. More women attempt suicide but more men complete it because men use more lethal methods. I worry almost everyday that Ill maim myself again and not die. SAN FRANCISCO (CBS SF) The family of a UC Berkeley freshman who disappeared last September has offered a $10,000 reward for information in connection with the case. Additionally, Hines takes medication and . Dec. 11, 2019 Updated: Dec. 12, 2019 8:06 a.m. 5. Thank you for contributing to the discussion. 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The most intuitive reason is that suicidal crises are, by their nature, temporary. Her mother Kimberly West has said to a journalist The bridge was quite busy (that day). Her parents,Jay and Kimberly West,said their daughter liked visiting that bridge and would go to nearby Crissy Field to exercise. This case has always stuck with me because I am in my 20s and suffer from anxiety and depression. According to San Francisco Police Department (SFPD) her family reported her missing two days after she was last seen on Oct 2, 2020. Car plunges off California elevated highway, 3 people killed. There is only a 4ft safety rail separating the sidewalk from the void, and 98% of suicide attempts there have succeeded. Stacey Freedenthal, PhD, LCSW, is the author of the books Helping the Suicidal Person: Tips and Techniques for Professionals and Loving Someone with Suicidal Thoughts: What Family, Friends, and Partners Can Say and Do. Take a trip somewhere I mean what do you have to lose, on your journey to wherever you may see life worth living make yourself do something. I was so worried about him, but he refused to get help and he kept drinking. My hope for others feeling like that is they tell someone who can help them. West was last seen on the Golden Gate Bridge onSept. 30, 2020 just before 7 a.m., according to the San Francisco Police Department. Until then, that instinct may have been obscured by depression, stress, hopelessness or despair. Her family still has hope that they will one day find her. But as long as your solution is to kill yourself , you wont see them even if theyre right in front of you. Your message here is a good one. I am so very grateful now to be alive and I hope to find ways to assist others going through the deep abyss that can sometimes take over your entire being take another breath, and another. Why Prevent Suicide? He says he fully expected to speak with her the next day and became very worried when she didnt return multiple calls from him. I wish everyone could receive this gift, and I am grateful that you and others have done so! Theres just a lack of evidence that shes not with us anyone, Jay West said. This is perhaps the best argument for preventing suicide. A couple hours. September 30, 2020 was the last time anyone saw or heard from 19-year-old Sydney West. Syd, Ive always loved you from the bottom of my heart, since the minute I saw your eyes open. It may help,, Kind Regards, Dialectical behavior therapy? [This comment was edited, per the Comments Policy. Sergeant Kevin Briggs (also known as the Guardian of the Golden Gate Bridge [1] [2]) is a California Highway Patrol officer noted for his work in suicide intervention, having dissuaded more than two hundred people from jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge into San Francisco Bay. Bonnie. A good place to start is the Facebook group Live Through This. In the 1970s, a researcher named Richard Seiden wanted to find out what happened to 515 people who came to the Golden Gate Bridge to die within the previous 35 years, but who were stopped by California Highway Patrol officers. About his dads suicide, your article helping me a lot to help. When I woke up a day later, my depression had greatly improved. I said, Well, the night we met I got so drunk I passed out on the living room floor. I wonder if you might benefit from talking with like-minded folks at ChronicSuicideSupport.com. My mother battled w depression I watched her battle hard all my life and still. Sometimes, life just sucks and the pain of living is unbearable. Children are a major reason for living for many people who battle suicidal thoughts. Perfectly so. Thank you. I still think about suicide, although not as often. Anyone with information is asked to call 415-575-4444. The ongoing survival of people who attempt suicide is not (always) inevitable. Even for people who passionately wish and perhaps even need (for health reasons) to lose weight, they do not always prevail. For those who are thinking about suicide, I know what happens after youre gone isnt part of the thought process, but believe me, you might end your pain, but the trajectory of pain caused to others is also insurmountable. All clues so far, the family has revealed, have not been fruitful. of the different medications. I want you to know you are loveable and precious. The main principle to this is very simple Taking energy and harnessing it for the good and nothing can go wrong.. This is certainly true for me: narcissistic mother and sister. We interviewed our tech expert, Jaime Vazquez, to learn more about accessible smart home devices. I hope he is seeing a psychiatrist for his medications, not a PCP, because psychiatrists are much more well versed in the benefits, risks, side effects, etc. He has visited mental hospitals several times since his jump. Lets get real here life sucks and its hard but dont give up. It seems to be an if all else fails, Ill just kill myself attempt to cope that gives me short-term comfort but itlike alcoholonly provides temporary relief and Im still left with my limited ability to cope with life. I know how hard it is. There are some reports that Sydney may have suffered from depression. As I entered Oklahoa, something I like to think it was my Higher Powerinspired me to call my brother in Illinois and I ended up going in and out of treatment centers until I finally realized that Im an alcoholic and that there was hope for me. There are many people with children whose pain or distorted thinking overrides all else, in spite of their best wishes. While at Berkeley she joined the rowing team and showed a strong interest in medicine, business, and biological science. "We know that there was a lot of pedestrian, car and bicycle traffic on the Golden Gate Bridge the morning Sydney disappeared. At 11:45 a.m. on Sept. 20, 2013 Kyle Gamboa stopped his truck in the middle of the highway, stepped out, ran onto the pedestrian walkway and jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge to his death. So it is with anything else, including suicidal thoughts. A jump off the Golden Gate Bridge takes around four seconds, during which a person will reach a speed of 80 mph before smashing into the water's surface like concrete. At 10 o'clock in the morning, Ken. The footage taken by Guzman didn't make the news, but was watched by a small, select group: the San Francisco coroners jury, which quickly ruled a case of accidental death from drowning a week later.